Black or White II? Mystery Cache

I've already told you
"I don't know..."
And if you would've asked me again
I still wouldn't have known
such a simple question
as Black and White as could be
And what have I?
But to say "Black"
Or "White".

I can't settle for either
Black is where I've always been
And White is where I want to be
But not the shade it's in at the moment
What shade indeed do I really want?
I don't know...
Will I ever find it then?
Not in this lifetime
Mayhaps.

Black is where I belong
White is where you want me to
Sometimes I am so crazed
So blinded by the purity of it all
Sometimes I am disgusted
By the pale shadows
The sheer white that isn't so
Can I live my life
Forever choosing and embracing
Either and neither
Or do I wait for a dream
That may one day yet come true
Because
In my dreams
I don't see colours at all

So what would it be then
Black?
White?
Or...